Sure has been awhile since I last updated. I don't know why really since I have a lot going on upstairs. Kind of stressed out a bit after a talk I had with my dad. Guess you can say now he knows about Rodger and I. I wasn't trying to hide it, not like my first relationship which I did for a reason, but I just didn't really know how to tell my dad I was with Rodger... and yesterday, he brought it up. And I dunno... now I'm stressing about some stuff... but I really don't want to be stressing right now, so I'm trying to push it all to the back of my mind for later. D:

Christmas was alrighttt. Sucks growing up. ]: I miss getting more toys than I knew what to do with in a days worth of playing. Lol. For the first time in I don't know how long, I got something I asked for. A candies purse, which is a Kohl's brand. ♥ I didn't get it in the color I wanted, but I still love it just the same and I'm so glad my dad actually found one still left. Haha. [: It's so pretty. I'm also hoping to buy a casio exilim digital camera with my Christmas money. I wish my dad would have given me $100 and not a $100 gift card 'cause now I'm going to have to debate whether to settle for the black casio, or save the gift card later and go to Fry's Electronics to get the red or silver casio. I really want the red one, but ughh. With Walmart, you can only order the red or silver online. The black one is the only one sold in stores. I'm thinking I'll try to get over to Walmart tomorrow after work and take a look at it. See if the black grows on me. xD Or see if a different kind of digital camera does. I first saw the red one at Fry's Electronics and I reallllyyy wanted it right then and there. But I really don't want to get it if I'll have to dish into my own money. My gift card is for Sam's Club or Walmart, and then I have $170 in cash. I guess I really wouldn't have to take too much out of my bank account if I used my own money. I just have to pay my phone bill and internet, and I'll also need money for fooood... so, suckage. D: That black one better be pretty in person, 'cause I might just have to settle. Lol.

I feel so sick to my stomach. I hate that it doesn't take much to remind me of what I've been trying to move on from. Maybe I need these people to see. To see that it still hurts and bugs me. Maybe I DO need to let go of those who have hurt me, because their faces only remind me.

Sigh.

I have more to say, but I need to go. I'm probably going to just start publicly making posts on my myspace, because there... I will know these people will read my thoughts.

Sooooo... guess it's been a few days since I've really updated. I like how I got this journal to vent in, when the drama just became to much to hold in... but when I felt like my heart was just breaking in two, all I wanted to do was sleep. Not write, but sleep. So that is what I did. And now, it seems pointless to write about it all. So I'm moving on? Lol.

Work sucks. Not having money to spend sucks. I'm thinking about filling out a new time availability sheet at work and being completely open and available as much as possible. Right now, I've asked for no more than 30hrs a week and morning shifts only. But I guess it might be helpful if I worked more, because then I'd definitely have more money. Lol. I'm just tired of the work I do and the less amount of time I spend at work, the happier I am. xD

I'm uber excited for Friday. Going to see Twilight with the Laurameister. And hopefully I can talk her into seeing Bolt with me earlier Saturday morning, so we only have to spend like $5 on a movie. XD I want to see it so bad, it looks sooo cute. I love the little hamster. "I eat danger for breakfast!" Haha.

So, yesterday was a wee bit interesting. Collene came over a few hours after I got off work. I spent those alone hours cleaning my room. It had been awhile since the last time I really cleaned... so much dust, I actually got dust in my eyes. That was a first. Lol. After sitting around and doing nothing, Collene convinced me to go to the hot tub. I kept telling her it would be cold once we got out, and I told her to consider the length of the walk home. She was all, "Oh, it won't be cold!" Oh, but it was. We knew it would be before we even got out. We sat there for like 15 minutes, dredding the walk back to my place. Lol. It was already cold outside, getting out of the hot tub would just make it worse. We finally decided to get it over with and were basically running to the gate. I was talking about something while we were hussling to the gate and just as I approached the gate, some guy yelled something at us. I didn't hear him though, and just as he spoke I slipped and just about ran into the gate. Lmfao. Luckily I got the bars with my hand and braced myself. I guess he said, "Be careful" and "Watch your step" haha. Dx And embarrassed, I pretty much power walked the rest of the way and he continued to call out "watch your step" because of the black spots on the sidewalk near the pool. Rofl.

Uhh, today we pretty much did nothing. We were going to go see "Zach and Miri make a porno" sometime after my brother got out of school but due to bad timing, we couldn't make the 4:30 and neither one of us wanted to go at 6. So Collene and I just went to Carls Jr instead. I got a beastly burger. Friggin' A. Carls Jr has the best burgers ever. Lol.

UM. Bed time. Baai.

So, work was... interesting. I don't understand why they never schedule TWO people in the morning to cover kids AND home. They always have the person in kids covering home, as if kids isn't busy enough. And then, just like yesterday... the woman who was suppose to be in kids today... called out, again. So really, they're screwed. Oh wait, no. MY bad. The rest of us floor department employees are screwed. I was busy pulling out another uboat of shoe freight from the back when a customer approached me and asked if anyone was working in the home department. I asked her what her question was and said I'd page the home associate to see if anyone was 1.) Here and 2.) Get an answer to her question. WELL, the manager responded to my page just to tell me that no one was in home. And that was it. Lol. So, I had to run back to the back and upstairs to figure out if we had what the customer was looking for. Of course we didn't. And then it was just Lee and I, really. It was hectic having him cover for me and I cover for him. While I was covering for him, I got stuck on the registers for awhile. So, not only was there no one available to assist customers in MENS, but no one to assist anyone in shoes... not until I could get off the register. I just don't understand the planning of the scheduling. It just really irritates me that they wouldn't schedule enough employees to begin with ESPECIALLY since today was a SALES day. Of course several hours after the store opened, they called in two more people to come in to help with the registers, but no help in the floor department area. Today was just ridiculous. I NEVER have to cover for mens and they NEVER cover for shoes. I always call on kids to cover for me and every now and then, they depend on me to cover for them. But there was just no one in either kids or home. I don't even know if there was anyone in misses or juniors. Lamelamelame.

But anyways. After work Laura and I went to Wendys. That girl is insane. Not only does she pour SALT into her KETCHUP, but she poured 3 pepper packets onto her bun. I couldn't believe the layer of pepper. That would just ruin my Jr Bacon Cheese Burger. I had to take a picture of her bun because I couldn't believe it. Lmao.

Um. After that we split and went our separate ways. I came home and got online for a bit. Then Isaac and I went and saw ROLE MODELS. Funniest movie EVER! Fuckin' love it. And Ronnie basically MADE the movie for me. That kid is hilarious. Oh, and of course McLovin was in it, so that was hot. ;;)

Now I s'pose I'll read some more of New Moon and then hit the hayy. El worko manana. 7am, wthz. I can't even remember what I'm doing tomorrow. I think it's another truck day. Fabbb.

Wow. So, last night was teh super suckage of sleep. I think I woke up just about every hour, or every other hour. Ridiculousss. My brother didn't go to bed until about 2-2:30AM, so of course I gotta listen to him screaming into his head piece at his team mates until then. Ugh. I swear that kid is so inconsiderate. If I stay up late and he's gotta work early the next morning, I'm super quiet. But me? Who cares. D:

I'm probably gonna leave to work early today so I can sit in the break room and read New Moon. *sigh* It's such an obsession. I quite honestly don't know who I love more, Edward Cullen or Jacob Black. xD I'm just going to be Mrs. Cullack. Haha.

Well. I'm bored. So to avoid a super long, pointless rambling entry I s'pose I'll go now and finish getting ready so I'll have a decent amount of time to read myyy book.

It's fuckin' hot up in hurr. D: It's a little bit ridiculous when you live in Arizona, and the temperature inside your home is hotter than the temperature OUTSIDE. Like seriously, wtf? If that fucking temperature jumps back up to 78 degrees, I'm sleeping with the window open regardless if a certain someone doesn't like it. I'm sweating like there's no tomorrow. And thats uncomfortable.

Anyways. I figured it was time to come back to livejournal, because who would of thunk it? Kylee actually needs somewhere to vent from time to time, when life just gets to be a little too much to handle. And my myspace blog just isn't cutting it because sometimes, I need to write about personal things. This journal isn't entirely friends only, as you can see... this blog is public. The personal ones will be. So for those of you stalking my eljay, if you want to read the juicy stuff I suggest you grow some cajones and get yourself a username, and add me.

Today was interesting. After hanging with Laura, I was walking back to my apartment and came across a man and woman coming down a flight of stairs, arguing about the man's shorts. I didn't bother looking at either of them as I passed them. As I did, the man called out to me and asked, "Do you like my shorts?" I of course, turned around to look at them. I started from his feet, moving up his legs... I saw more and more leg than I was expecting and I was thinking, "Oh god, does this man even HAVE underwear on?!" And then I saw it. The speedo. Lmfao! And seriously, that is all I did. I laughed and turned back around, continuing on home. I just couldn't say anything. Rofll. That guy seriously made my night. Speedo man.

I s'pose I'll go read more of New Moon before I force myself to go to bed. Got a lovely 4 hour shift tomorrow in shoes. It's been a week since I've been in shoes at work. Shouldn't be bad at all. D=